I push myself to write at least once a month -- it's therapeutic for me. It allows me to process my feelings and essentially talk to myself. I haven't felt inclined to write lately and it truly is because a lot has happened this year.  For awhile, I didn't want to address what was happening in my life because it seemed selfish to. The whole world was going through a major emotional, financial, and health shift so it seemed very narcissistic of me to focus on how I was impacted. I moved across the world to a foreign country with a culture and language different than my own. Three months later I was evacuated within 48 hours from this foreign country and (it felt like I) was thrown back home. I was depressed -- extremely depressed. I pulled my self back up. I started crowdfunding. Reaching out to the community and caring for others. Began caring for myself. I started to use the resources that Peace Corps provided to me and I applied to schools. I got in. I got huge scholarships. I prepared to move. Breonna Taylor died. George Floyd died. The uprisings began. I began mobilizing, 'organizing', protesting. I grew tired. I grew sad. I grew worried. I remembered my oath when I was sworn in to the Peace Corps -- to protect the United States from all enemies foreign and domestic. Realized this is why I was sent home; it was time to start my legal career and focus on my own country before I engaged with others.

Then June came.

All of this happened in 6 months. 6 freaking months. This year has been a whirlwind and it's just now hitting the mid point. So yeah. Its been difficult for me to write my June blog post because what do I say? Theres been a plethora of highs and lows and it doesn't seem to be stopping. It's the weirdest thing and I don't know how to process it. I want to celebrate the highs and learn from the lows but they just keep coming. In three weeks I'll be moving half way across the country to start the next chapter in my life. I've been trying to stop myself from planning like crazy because if 2020 has taught me anything, it's that que sera, sera. What will be, will be.

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